To make a long story short, life got busy and the structure and balance in our relationship started to slip. I began to assert increasing control, and though things worked out ok for a bit, I began to flounder. I needed him to reassert his authority, give me some boundaries and remove the uncertainty I was lost in- topping from the bottom sometimes happens accidentally, but it can be very destructive to a relationship. The final straw for him was the evening I had not one, but two temper tantrums, in public, and then blamed my inexcusable behavior on him. I could feel things shift between us even as I yelled at him, but he let me worry until we were alone before making it clear that he had had enough of my attitude and would be reasserting himself as head of our household, effective immediately. And, though my stomach clenched with nerves, I also felt tremendous relief that I could let go of my efforts to be in control, and I became aroused instantly at the feel of his hand on my ass as he gave me a warning spank. At the first sign of further misbehavior, I was told in no uncertain terms, I would be taken over his knee- in public, if necessary- and corrective action would be taken.
Our relationship dynamic moved right back to our norm, though I realized I will have to put more effort into being actively obedient- I really am out of practice! I anticipated our first evening in private with a mixture of arousal and caution. I was sure I’d be thoroughly punished for my disrespect, but even the thought of that turned me on… Knowing that he was back in control was worth hours of penance, in my opinion! I imagined him sitting, naked, working on his laptop or watching tv or surfing porn- me, on my knees, with his hard cock deep in my throat while he fucked my face. He would make me hold my hands behind my head or back, so my tits would be vulnerable and available. He’d use the crop on my entire body, while making me earn his attention with my mouth… If I didn’t suck him off well, he’d ignore my efforts completely; when I did a good job, he’d call me his good slut… Mmmmm…
What actually happened was very different though. I was told to put on a thin white shirt and short skirt, and nothing else, and I was to wait for him on our bed. When he came to bed naked, he kissed me gently but passionately. He asked me whether I was prepared to be obedient and follow his rules, and whether I had any doubt about my position in our relationship- I assured him that I know exactly where I stand, that he is the head of our household and I submit to him fully. He then told me he’d be using my body for his pleasure, and that I would not attempt to refuse him anything. As he began to play with my clit, he told me to grab his cock and stroke it. When I squirmed from the direct stimulation and tried to get him to shove his fingers in my cunt, he forcibly pushed harder on my clit and refused. Sometimes, he told me what to do (“turn over with your ass in the air”, “suck my cock”), but mostly he just moved me where he wanted, and put his cock/hands/mouth anywhere he chose. Though I am always my husband’s sex toy, I don’t get to feel used and abused very often- this night I was. He sat on my legs and sparked me ruthlessly with his hands, then made me squirt before spanking me again, even harder. He slapped my face, hard, while I rode his hard cock, over and over. He rolled me on my back and fucked me until my pussy was raw. I was told to finger my ass while he watched, then he pounded my ass forcefully, with his hands around my throat. After he filled my ass with his cum, he made me keep my legs spread in the air and told me to fist myself, saying “I want to see how much my little slut can take”. Only after he was satisfied was I allowed to lower my legs.
Just thinking of being truly his in this way makes me so wet I can barely walk. I know I have lots more punishment to endure for my misbehavior, and I eagerly anticipate being retrained. I look forward to proving my compliance and obedience, as many times as necessary, and carry my bruises with great pride. I love making him proud of me as his wife, his slut and his sex toy!